rafting, and other stuff.......i plan to put pictures on too.

yesterday we went to somebody's house for the afternoon. we had lots of fun. plus they had really really good food. while there we watched "Prince Caspian". that was cool.
My mom got an ipod yesterday. did i say the reason we were at peoples house is because my dad and mom went shopping? well that was the reason. so now we have and ipod. that is cool.

i sit here writing and listening to music. i wonder....how it would be to live in the same house all your life, to know the same people. to never see any thing except what is here. of all the strange things that would be strange.
for me life is not knowing and yet trusting. uncertainty is forgotten by faith. yesterday is a memory of another world, a distant land. A fairy tale? maybe. dwarfs and elves? i would not be surprised. yesterday is a smell, a sight, a feeling that comes back only when unexpected. yesterday is something i will never know for sure. tomorrow? i don't know. God does and i will leave it to him. today is something i have never known, something that shocks me and yet brings back memories of of other places where the joy was the same. today is a joy, a journey, a God who never fails. I'm so mixed up i don't know what is up or down. God keeps showing me things about him and about my self. up or down doesn't matter any more, only he does. following him and getting to know him more is all that matters now. every thing may be new yet he stays the same. so worry is forgotten in the joy that overwhelms. i have peace in him. so why worry?

wow i just said a lot!!!! when i start writing i can't quit can i? so if you totoly got lost on what i was saying, it was just every thing that goes through my head. so now you know what i think about:)

kaleb and i made a raft and went rafting down the dich

our fort a long time ago before it turned to water:)

bike

one thing i forgot to say last time is that i got a bike!!! yea!!! if you don't already understand, i am very excited!!!
my mom is going to a concert this evening. i hope maybe i can go to the court while she is there. unfortunately i don't think it will work. oh well.

i just finished writing 2 more stories. now just editing.... or torture which ever you would rather.

we just found out that training here is over. to bad...to sad......I'm not glad....I'm just a lad....I'm not that mad..... its not a fad....or an add for that matter.....i think i lost my mind....will you help me to find?.....it would be kind....yikes I'm going insane.
maybe now you know why my mom some times gets headaches. but if you were to listen to Kaleb you would under why my head always hurts. (just joking Kaleb)
Kaleb broke a racket the other day in training. only the 3rd.




well now i am going to go eat because I'm hungry. that would be the reason i eat wouldn't it? man talking is so much work... i can say things so many wrong ways.

having not written in a long time

well I guess i have not written in years. Maybe not years, but you get what i mean. i have tried and tried to post but something happened on my computer because i could not. it has gotten a lot warmer since i wrote last. today is 0 degrees. i think. it was 15 a couple days ago. it did not stay.
i am not totally sure what i should say, lots of things have happened. i got a 2 day job at a turkey farm a week or so ago. i worked from about 2 till 4:30. that was cool. mmmmmmmm........ and i started carving a little man.
i finished writing another story. i am going to send it to some writer dude to look at. we went to somebody's cabin for a day, we drove a quad and a snowmobile. that was fun.

i got stuck with the snowmobile, one trucks got stuck and one of the quads got stuck and the other quad got a broken track. that made it even more fun!!!
to get to the cabin we drove on a frozen lake. that was awesome.

Words hide their meaning,

The false smile disguises pain,

Anger covers a broken heart,

But joy can never hide.

Smile. I hope they understand what I want it to mean. Hope they understand. Talk to them….. NO WAY!!! Why would I tell them? So I wait… hoping somebody tells them. But we have the gift of life so why do I sit smiling and hoping? Fear. Fear of people, fear of myself, that I won’t say the right thing. Is it courage I need, or faith and trust? Faith in the fact that He is stronger in me than he that is in the world, trusting He will give me the words to speak when the time comes. That is the courage that I need.